Diagnosed at 44...at this point there is no mask . It's who I am now
"I love your personality!"
'Thanks, I made it just for you.'
Oh my God!
This is so relevant to my recent experience!
I have not yet been assessed/evaluated/diagnosed, but I’m resonating so much with what those who experience life with ASD(Autism Spectrum Disorder-also ND) & ADHD simultaneously….
And shared this suspicion with a friend, she BLEW UP! Unfortunately, which in thousands of levels was heartbreaking ❤️🩹💔
ButI am also working to unmask and differentiate me from my mask. (Which I have already been working in deprogramming from societal stuff, which feels like unmasking) but seeing it through these eyes is even more helpful.
New fear unlocked💀
About 3 month ago i went to see my dokter about my mental state. I thought i had a pretty big chance of having adhd. I decided not to go thru with it because my dokter responded with : Why would you do that? You 45 whats the point?
Jaw dropped and i never saw that dokter again.
Damn this is so real it hurts.
The same goes for long-term depression and ptsd. At one point the line between me and my disease seemingly became the same.
I love your personality! Thanks it’s pretty much a copy of your personality so you’ll like me
ha. at least your diagnois wasnt after your 66th birthday 😅😂🤣😪👍 which mask will i be today ?!! ha ha ha..
Oh yep, Thats me....
I was diagnosed at 13, I still wonder lol
Idek if I'm masking or not anymore tbh lol
My mask has become so much a part of me that I find it almost impossible to STOP masking, even around people who know I'm ND and don't expect me to be NT. The only way I can relax and drop the mask is complete isolation.
Every artist has their own style. So if you made a mask, it’s YOUR mask, your creation, and there’s still you in that. At least that’s what I tell myself. (Also late diag AuDHD despite how obvious my symptoms were as a child!)
Same with me and my Asperger's and ADD. Thanks for bringing it up, I thought I was alone feeling like that.
I mask really hard at school. I'm back in school after graduating highschool 13 yrs ago. I'm very emotionally & mentally exhausted after school. I try to be my most "natural" self at work, with some exceptions. I feel comfortable & safe in my work environment. At home, I probably mask more than work? I have 2 young kids& even though they find me odd. I'm trying my best to lead by example. Trying to learn how to take control of my big emotions & coping with them. I feel like I fail miserably.... But that's my mom guilt
Saw ND in the title, part of me perked up thinking me and one of my favorite creators were from the same state.
This is too true 😅